Archive for October, 2006

Tuesday, October 31st, 2006

life’s so twisted…

i just had a good talk with my bestbuddy tonight…
i miss my girlfriends…
i know that being with them i can be my realself without boundaries and we can talk endlessly about the moon the stars and the skies… about everything and anything… facts of life… skeletal in the closet…

i talk too much… :p

well, i believe when you’re with someone… (applies to hubby/wifey, bf/gf, friends, bestfriends, acquaintances, soulmates, colleagues, siblings, parents, in-laws, relatives, affairs, ex’s and maybe even to those people who ‘love u to death’ etc... goes out to everyONE!) there should not be any boundaries…
if you wanna start something… you gotta be honest and truthful to yourself first then you can open up to the ones you love… and the ones you love should accept you the way you are… accept everything else that comes with you (whether he or she likes it but it’s reality and you can’t change it so u might as well just accept it and not hold on to it coz if you do… then you’re always in reverse and standstill never having to move forward)… mind you but correct me if i am wrong…

part and parcel of life…

why is the world full of judgmental homosapiens…

i’m blessed with people in my life, lovedones who are not judgmental in any way…

happy halloween!

Monday, October 30th, 2006

I have half of my marbles…
At least I’m commonsensical now… blissful sanity :o)

Busy as a bee
last weekend, for the whole
family and Tina…

Saturday events
I lost my sanity in wee hours of the morning… (felt like %$#@& ~ mayb if I had gotten hit
by a humongous truck it would have made me feel so much better, rationalisation
for my loss of sanity…stupidity and silliness!
)
Noon time, I went to embrace my status as a grandaunty… Full moon of Baby Elora Gabrielle… proud parents is Chrystal Joy Mansa and Hubby Ronnie… Joy is my first cousin, Francesca Tunggolou’s youngest daughter… wan unable to attend my nieces weddings end of last year as I have just lost my precious lil’Angel Faith then… only now I got to meet up with my nieces and their respective hubbies… (tho, I’ll never actually be an auntie to them… in their eyes I am and will always be a little girl to them) Baby Elora Gabrielle is so adorable…

Baby_elora


and, now I’m awaiting the arrival of my grandnephew…
can’t wait to see Rachel a.k.a. Mrs. Melvin Moosom’s little prince… can’t
hardly wait

come evening, my Hubby surely made a tremendous
effect with my relatives… was cute and funny of him and boy! was he
embarrassed… we couldn’t get our car started ~ batt was flat (imagine that! He loves to keep his car as neat
as a new pin ~ u can actually see him ‘bathe’ the car at least 5 times a week
and it amazes me that he didn’t bother checking the batt water. Thank God my
daddy had left by then, if not, he’ll sure be shaking his head wondering wat on
earth is his son-in-law doin driving around with the batt water almost empty! …
ain’t my duty! ~ so ‘conventional’ eh…
) my AbangHenry (Rachel’s dad), Melvin and other cousins managed to get our
car started eventually, with April’s help also by keeping her car engine
running… it’s so comical when u think back ~ especially when my hubby started ‘pushing’
the attention on me, JUST CAUSE I was driving the car previous night… (had a nightout with Debbie, April & my
Lil’Bro ~ Aaron after Raya at Olie&Jali’s place with Hubby & Debbie
)

Typical Men, should I say? I found the whole thingy
oh-so funny and to my self-great amusement… eveningtime, we went to Church… and,
usual weekend dinner at the Club House… was so busted by the time we got home…
oh, I was also so infuriated on certain issue but I shall not elaborate here coz,
if I do and when I start (I better never initiate!),
I’m definitely stirrin the hornet’s nest
all over again… and, it’s definitely gonna be one helluva rumbletumble &
merrygoaround so, I’ll shut (~ I mean,
wtf! as long as my Hubby doesn’t mind… I can’t give a f*ck wat others say @
think of me…
) baa, humbug!
J anyways, after a whirlwind fridaynight and
saturdaypre-dawn, I finally got my zzz… counting roditure to sleep…

it’s almost 10a.m… I’ll continue with my Sunday events
later…

it’s really Monday Blues…

..

.

I’m back!

it’s 11a.m. now… completed my
correspondences, called a client at Sipitang to come down and sign his loan
documentations this week and hello! wat cheek he had askin for my hp number… I
mean, it’s my personal line duh! I told him that he can locate me at the office
anytime within working hours… no way my hp number is gonna start being handouts
to any tom dick and harry ~ especially, after certain events… I’m definitely
wary with whom I have lunch @ drinks @ coffee with… no one is as trustworthy as
they seem…

Sunday events

Woke up in the morning and JonJon was off to Sunday
school… (can’t believe he’ll be receiving
his first holy communion next year…
)

Went home by mid-morning after doing some bargain
hunting and I’m quite lucky tis weekend… no more shopping for me, at least
until christmastime… :p

By 1.00p.m… thinking I had just enough time to get my
troops ready for Siti Moira’s open house at 2p.m. ~ my hubby woke up
blurrish saying that we have Mervyn’s little girl, Chelsea’s birthday party to
go to at 12noon… (hello! It’s
1p.m. already)… but, we made it in time, for cake cutting… Chelsea
was a little princess on her
birthday… can’t wait for My Little Princess to be up and about…

Almost 3p.m… we reached Moi’s place (last year, 3rd day of Raya… was
the time my water bag started leaking at her house. Happened just as I sat down
and about to start eating at the dining table… I can still clearly visualise how
panic I was especially since I was too early in my pregnancy for my twin’s delivery
and my hubby wasn’t with me… Audrey Cherry and her hubby, Sean was the one who rushed
me home… lucky thing my parents were home to bring me to the Hospital, Hubby
was still at Stadium and I told him to meet me at the Hospital straightaway… it
was cute when Audrey’s hubby, in the midst and spur of the hullabaloo and panic,
had to walk back to Moi’s place coz he realized that he had put on slipper of
different pairs
) anyways, Grace and Hubby Jason was already there with
Fiona at Moi’s place… (and we have a date for Coffee Bean this Friday! (to
be confirmed) usual agenda and get-together so it’s open to all SFConvent’94
Batch
) after Moi’s place, went to Anizah’s (my colleague) house for another
raya open house… wat an eventful and foodfilling Sunday for us… I actually
slept in the car with my Princess in my arms on our way home…

suppose to have had coffetalk with April and Rachel
but was too busted so I guess it’s a raincheck for sometime this week…

I think the pictures say all… :o)

My mind’s crystalclear now… I’m happy that I’ve come
to a high degree of understanding on
certain issue… on life…

turnaboutevents in life is not, does not always seem
to turn out as how you want them to be… it’s more of a ‘how you make do’ and ‘live
with it’…

I ‘talk’ @ blog too much…

Fundamentally, certain events I want to stay
embedded, so I blog…

Though I’d love to
blog as unreservedly and explicitly as I fancy (just like a ‘Dear Diary’~ I
used to have names for my diaries but I decided to burn all of them coz my
entries tend to get too delicate and it’ll sure be one helluva comprehension if
it falls in the wrong hands
) but I can’t… beyond doubt, I can’t bare it all
here… too personal, too risky, too offensive… :p

Friday, October 27th, 2006

was up tis morning at 6.30a.m…

i’ve lost my ’sanity’…

gotta start recollecting my marbles back…

Friday, October 27th, 2006

it’s 2.50a.m… fridaynight or should i say saturdaypre-dawn

can’t sleep…

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thinking thinking thinking, got my thinking cap on and my head’s been thinking (too much mayb!)

e m p t i n e s s . . .

had a good @ ouch @ reality talk earlier… realitybites

* s i g h s  &  d o u b l e s i g h s *

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Wednesday, October 25th, 2006

LIFE IS LIKE A BOX OF CHOCOLATES… YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT U GONNA GET ~ FORREST GUMP


This phrase caught me from the moment I first heard it… and, I’ve watched the movies tons of time… (not for the sake of just the phrase but coz the storyline’s good!)


Life’s (supposed to be) all sweet and yummy then the fillings would be loads of surprises… whether you like it or not… whether you’ve tasted it or not… whether you’ve heard of it or not… thereafter, it’s wholly up to you whether you wanna embrace it wholly… having the guts to finish what you started… maybe hesitate and ‘eat’ it half-heartedly… or maybe dun take the chances, just not continue after the first bite and be contented with never ever tasting it… ;o)


Life is a risk… filled with multiple choices…


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*i’m not thinking straight*


Monday Blues… (only it’s not Monday but it’s Thursday…) Post-Holidays Blues…

Everyone in the office is still in the holiday mode… holiday spirit…

H O L I D A Y S ! ! ! (next holiday season would only be come Christmastime… )

My holidays were well spent ~ quality times with hubby and kids, having extra sleep in the mornings (though my self auto-alarm wakes me up without failure at 6.30a.m.), endless coffee-talk with April and Rachel (best 4 ½ hours of coffee I have had for months, mind u! April is my cuzie and Rachel is my heavily expecting niece ~ omg! I’m gonne be a 2nd time grandauntie soon), Raya home visiting of few good friends (Sam+Baby’s and Benny a.k.a Benito’s), happy hours all night long with ‘old acquaintances’ (a long deserved reward for being a docile momma@wife for months and I ‘found’ my little brother back), afternoons at the Mall (got ourselves a new digicam! which my hubby has been at ‘hinting’ terribly), Starbucks, quiet evening at the beach (I’m disappointed with how ‘well-kept’ the beach has been! But my boys still loved the sand and their auntie April too, with uncle Aaron looking over ma boyzs!)…

 

*sighs* back to working… and it’s only 10.30. a.m….

 


*thanks april and aaron for giving me a memorable night out HUGZmuakks love ya both lots! and we gotta do one again soon ya* :op 

a song with thousands of meanings…

Sunday, October 22nd, 2006

Another one of the thingy’s I feel deserves to be put up here…

I love this song…
I love it more when I hear Melissa Angus sings it… you should take time out and listen to them singing… as at now, they’re at Le Meridien Hotel…

know how much i love this song ~ when Melissa sings it, it feels like my heart stops beating the whole song through and only starts beating back when she ends her number
*i love you Mel a.k.a. Molosoi* :O)


If I Ain’t Got You - Alicia Keys

Some people live for the fortune

Some people live just for the fame

Some people live for the power yeah

Some people live just to play the game

Some people think that the physical things

Define what’s within

I’ve been there before

But that life’s a bore

So full of the superficial

Some people want it all

But I don’t want nothing at all

If it ain’t you baby

If I ain’t got you baby

Some people want diamond rings

Some just want everything

But everything means nothing

If I ain’t got you

Some people search for a fountain

Promises forever young

Some people need three dozen roses

And that’s the only way to prove you love them

And in a world on a silver platter

And wondering what it means

No one to share, no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all

But I don’t want nothing at all

If it ain’t you baby

If I ain’t got you baby

Some people want diamond rings

Some just want everything

But everything means nothing

If I ain’t got you

Some people want it all

But I don’t want nothing at all

If it ain’t you baby

If I ain’t got you baby

Some people want diamond rings

Some just want everything

But everything means nothing

If I ain’t got you

If I ain’t got you with me baby

Nothing in this whole wide world don’t mean a thing

If I ain’t got you with me baby


(can i actually put up the song here? anyone?)

Friday, October 20th, 2006

AFTER LUNCH TIME

Contented… satisfied… fulfilled… pleased… at ease… delighted… thrilled… HAPPY! :o)

 

Had DeepaRaya luncheon in the office… not bad, simple lunch for a pax of about 30… but I had to rush out for Tina’s Fomema thingy… had to go to Maybank to bank-in, pick Tina up from the bus stand then in the midst of the rush hour, went to Fomema… phew! One done… two to go! Come Thursday, gotta go to the Labour Dept and renew my labour license and thereafter, to Immigration Dept to apply for her workin pass… (yes, I know u can do everything minus the hassle through an agent or runner, but so far I’ve done everything personally, with the whole hassle, just for the sake of knowing exactly how the procedure works. Mind you I have a lot of patience for all these things, unlike my Hubby… he gets ticked off if he has to sit on his ass unnecessarily) it’s tedious but I enjoy doing it… :o)

 

Yahooiey! My maid is home sweet home… I can catch up with my friends and spend endless hours talking over coffee and tiramisu (yummy!)

OH, Tina’s trip back home last July was worth it… (I have no regrets…) sadly, her hubby passed-away last august 27th (God Bless His Soul!)… I’m happy that he spent the last month of life with his wife by his side (after being away for two years)… I am glad I made her leave instead of waiting for her pass to expiry in November…

 

well, WE CAN NEVER KNOW WHAT’S GONNA HAPPEN THIS HOLS… ;O)

(laa dee daa daa daa…)

 

Happy holidays… Happy DeepaRaya…

(christmastime is just around the corner now…)

Friday, October 20th, 2006

BEFORE LUNCH TIME

Bamboozled… puzzled… confused… bewildered… perplexed… puzzled… baffled…

A week long of whirlwind mind-boggling events :o) (thank God I have my ‘sanity’ back!)

Everything in life is a risk-taking decision-making choice… whether it’s good or bad… whether u should or should not… whether it brings u any good or otherwise… long term or spur of the moment… yes? No?… Why do things usually happen when you least expect it…

it’s my 3rd month anniversary working in this Firm… love everything about my work… (well, not exactly… nothing is exactly purr-fect but it is actually how u accept with it)… I have no complaints about my current working place… maybe partly coz I have had worst employers before, just to name a few ~ from the type who bangs the table when he’s displeased with you and you just happen not to give him the answer he requires or want to hear, to the one who touches you indiscreetly as and when he pleases… to the one who calls u anytime of the day without any regard to your own space and privacy, to the one who drains ‘blood’ from you if he can, to the one who just transfer you to another section just coz she finds out that your ‘beau’ is the one of the section director’s son, to the one who shouts and calls u petty names just coz he likes it… (endless type of bosses I have had… just name it)… ‘been there, done that’… I guess with age, time and experiences, u’ll learn to appreciate and not complain so much… no doubt I have had good employers also, for sure… like my previous working place, my boss was purr-fect BUT to re-quote Jerry Macguire ‘Show me the Money‘… sad to say but loyalty doesn’t get you anyway, especially if the pasture is much more greener on the other side… ;o)

TGIF (again!) :o)

a week-long of hols come next week… (will only be back to my working station next Thursday)… our Firm declared Monday as hols but requires us to take as compulsory leave, (no complaints especially since it’s a directive from the Management) that was before they found out that the given public holiday on that 23rd October only applies to Federal Government offices and not State Government offices… who knows, Moses might change his mind at the eleventh hour… (Naught!~) NB: 1p.m. apparently it’s a State Government hols too now

Tina should be on the bus now… on her way from Sandakan… anticipating her arrival so much last Wednesday, counting the minutes and imagining her arrival ~ wat great disappointment I felt when only in the evening I managed to get her handphone and she told me that she’ll only be arriving on Friday… (I was thinking, dun complain so much la ~ Hubby was saying that she should have kept to her word)… well, let her have her break @ hols with her relatives there coz once she’s working with us, she’ll hardly get to see them… once, I did let her go back to Lahad Datu for the weekend and she did only come back on Monday evening… Maid may be our maid but she’s only human and putting myself in her shoes, I believe that you ‘do unto others as how u want others to do unto u’… practicing empathy is important in life…

I love my Hubby…

Kissing him bubbye last night as he was going off to work… watching him going down the stairs… it amazes me how I can still have ‘butterflies’ and my heart will flutter, even for a slightest moment, as I watched him leave…

He’s my Knight in Shining Armour

Friday, October 20th, 2006

NB: this is my entry written last Monday but didn’t get to upload my Blog till now :o)

I’m gonna be smiling the whole week through

Chubby cheeks surely makes me smile and laugh a lot…

It’s amazing how over a decade of absence, a friendship can still remain the same and some things just never seem to change…

Over the years, you’ll learn to differentiate and appreciate those who’ve come across your life, friendship who stays and who doesn’t… who matters most and who’s not worth a hood (or should i say f**k) about…

I’m lucky and thankful that I have a handful of friends whom matters most to me… (not forgetting my family of coz!)

heaven must be smiling down on me…

Saturday, October 14th, 2006

i got the long awaited news i’ve been anticipating since july…

my maid is BACK!!!
he he he she called from Sandakan and asked whether i still wanna employ her (
of coz i do!!), as discussed and agreed when she left (she had to leave for home coz her hubby was critically ill and i gave her the benefit of a doubt to come back, tho i have been crossing my fingers since then)… imagine the feeling (my heart was jumping for joy and my insides were skipping and going yippee dee doo daa, yipee dee daay) when i heard her voice on the other side on the line (omg, it’s Tina!)… she’s tops…!! (definitely!) when it comes to our kids, her tolerance level is high… also, she loves my kids to nuts (that’s wat’s matters most)… i dare say i can leave them with her for a week without any worries at all…

can’t hardly wait for her come this wednesday… (la la la la la)

imagine that ~ first things first, she asked for joshua… (
the apple of her eye!) she’s been taking care of him since he was merely a 2mth old babe…

i’m so happy….
wat a lovely weekend it is…

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