audreyst ~ ursTruly!’s ever-colourful subsistence

it’s less than a month to Christmas….

i’m humming Christmas jingle at my workplace…

xmastime… xmas season… then, new year 2007!

how swift 2006 has gone by… (wat remains of it, make a BLAST of it!)

being happy doesn’t mean everything’s perfect, it means that you have learnt to look past the Imperfections…

you should ever hold back on anything in your life…
live and let live…!
if you do, then eventually you’ll live a life full of resentment, grudge, bitterness…
and, you’ll never be happy!

i’m not perfect…
i believe no one in this humankind is…
(only God the Almighty is and He’s not living a perfect life Himself dealing with the crooks and crannies and peccadillo we’re giving Him…)
a perfect world is Heaven… in Paradise, our eternal life…
(which also depends completely on the way we lived our life, whether we are deserving servants of God)

again i’ll say, i’m not perfect…
BUT, i have learnt (and, am still am learning!) to deal with life and live it as blissfully and harmoniously as possible…
(Hubby says I take life too easy… I don’t. If i were to allow any diminutive detail impinge on me, i’ll forever live a life full of qualms, walking on eggshells 24/7, pessimistic…so, i don’t)
i always look on the vivid side of things…
practising and embracing every cloud has a silver lining…

i want a blissful life…
(who doesn’t?)
money can’t buy happiness
(ok, it does! but only momentary coz the more we have, the greater the desire… our desire is perpetuity… no humanlife would ever be contented with his/her life…)

everyone makes mistake…
(who hasn’t?)
if we don’t, how and when will we ever learn…

if i can deal with you, why can’t u?

We come to love not by finding a perfect person but by learning to see an imperfectly person perfectly…

(this applies to all… friendship, relationship, marriage, acquaintances, family, relatives… as long as you are living and breathing in this humankind and interacting with another humankind!)

NB: I loathe the fact that some wretched creature believe they have a say in your life, being hypercritical and condemnatory! first and foremost, you are not supporting my life nor do i ask for bread on my table from you…

Look at yourself in the mirror first before you start judging others!

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i’m an easy person to please… i aim to please too!

like a lioness, caress my fur the wrong way, i’ll growl…

How can u distinctly not have ur own persona?

Aren’t u mortified with urself…? Dun u have any pride…?

omg…!! to the measly lil’minutiae, u’re a faithful replica…

nonetheless, u may try to revolutionize a few thingamajig and doohickey as
to not make it so conspicuous… but, DUH! …hurrah hurrah… tremendous endeavour to be a smart aleck, but
Naught!

*tsk tsk* it’s proven all over again… pathetic homosapien… mtfk!

Such immense amusement…

Wat a glorious life…

i got this from my CuzApril… read on! :o)

interesting article, for leisure only… if there’s another one on ‘Woman’ I’ll put it up too…

"… IF A MAN WANTS YOU …"

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that’s not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you
can’t "be friends." A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.
Don’t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don’t stay because you think "it will get better."
You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man’s behavior. Change comes from within.
Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are… even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man. Nothing more, nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else’s man.
Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending…
compromise is a two-way street.
You need time to heal between relationships…there is nothing cute about baggage… deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you…a relationship consists of two WHOLE
individuals…look for someone complementary…not supplementary.
Dating is fun…even if he doesn’t turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes…when a man always know where you are, and your always readily
available to him - he takes it for granted.

Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Share this with other ladies….. You’ll make someone SMILE, another RETHINK her choices, and
another woman PREPARE.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love
them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

BY THE WAY, THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A MAN, SO TAKE A HINT………… =)

may GOD Bless our Precious Lil’Angel Faith’s soul forever and ever… AMEN!

Hubby and i went to visit our little girl today… it’s All Soul’s Day…

didnt anticipate it but i was in tears the whole time… started as and when i was walking to her final resting place… (i must have been the only person in tears at the cemetery the whole morning ~ i really could not contain my tears) there were other factors i was in tears also ~ some issues that was never should have had in the first place… and, wat broke my dam was… i think it was a son… a middle-aged guy… he was blowing his trumpet in front of his loved one’s final resting place… u know the tune they usually play to salute and respect the dead, in the army/police/navy force… the tune’s still clearly playing in my head, the whole cemetery was filled with his tune…  i was so touched by his gesture ~ to wat extend people do to honour and remember their loved ones… (Faith’s final resting place is surrounded with other babes like her…) there was also another set of parents singing to their babe…

my mummy, daddy and jonjon was already at Faith’s place… candles were already lighted up… we said our prayers for Faith… (my mummy had to pause in between the prayers, as she led… i was choking in my prayers…) after they left, we had our moment with Faith… i lighted six candles for her… to represent each and everyone of us ~ her daddy, myself, KokoJon, KokoJem, KokoJoshua and lil’mei mei Faye… i cant believe it has been almost a year now… a year ago i felt my world world was coming to an end… a year ago i died…

i lighted candles for my late uncle Joseph Vitales, my GodMa’s late hubby… and also for my maternal grandparents, Nanny and Ninny… (i miss my Nanny and Ninny so much…)

i’m still in a melancholy mode…

wished i could have bought tons & tons of flowers for my Angel…
wished i had more time with my Angel…
wished my Hubby could have been more understanding…
wished i had listened to my Nanny and Ninny… (especially Nanny…)

i think i’ll go spend my quiet time with Lil’Angel Faith again in the evening…

by myself this time…

(we’re gonna do here final resting place to perfection beauty when the earth has settled in… I’m gonna put a perfect pair of baby angels with her)

it hurts so much to visit your own flesh and blood, your own child…

u feel so helpless…