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i thought of my darling Angel (again!) today…
i think of her everyday… with every footstep i make, with every breath i take… with every lil’things i do, with every mouthful i swallow… everything that occurs in my life, day by day, my thoughts are filled with my Jasemynne Faith…

it is still very difficult, heartwrecking at times.. it has been almost 20 months now…
this coming July 10th would be my darling daughter’s 1st year & 8th month Anniversary…

could i have done something?
did we ~ did i make the right decision?

why… Why.. WHy… WHY…

re-quoting myself, when i blogged penning my thoughts after 9 months… after finding the courage the pen my thoughts:
The most difficult part in life STILL is having to experience putting your
own flesh and blood to his/her last resting place… instead of the norm,
whereby our kids should be the ones to put us to our last resting place…

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i miss u my darling Angel Jasemynne Faith M. Wong
Mummy will always and forever love u…

Respect is to be earned and gained…

First (second, third, fourth and so henceforth thereafter…) IMPRESSION matters… (and, LASTS!)

How u bring urslf portrays wat’ll populace think of u… but then again, u can never please all, can u? ~ one Man’s meet is another Man’s poison  ;oz

I’m such in a neurotic high-strung mode… it must be the FreakyFriday thingy!

I feel like I am walking on a tight wiry cord soaring above the clouds overlooking the whole bloody world… (in this case, a specific space in a pasty three-storey building)

at this point, I feel like I am a quiescent volcano… just anticipating to erupt gloriously!!

at this moment, I feel like I am a lioness just waiting to pounce and prowl on her playmeal…

bring it on, babe…

BUT, I have learnt (from my ever so colourful life!) to NOT utter anything when you are in a very disconcerted state of psyche… (just remove thy presence swiftly and gracefully)… u may just end up saying things which are just never meant to be said and lament wat has just spurted out like a riotous AK-47 literally from your vocalisations…(thou shalt never make a fool of thyself!) N E V E R ! ~ bear tat in mind… even if you gotta make a point, do so when you’re already cool, calm and collected :o) go take a long-drawn-out hike, smoke a pack of cigarettes, swig ten cuppa coffee, mollycoddle in retail therapy, read a novel, sleep on it ~ whatever thing consoles u!

*stay in cheek aud, thou shalt not lose compose and disgrace thyself* (it ain’t worth it!)

LOL! well, at least! I can still find the cynical funny side of the whole thingy…

The weather’s not helping either, it is? SO damn bloody HOT now…. It’s scorching and sweltering like hell outside, bet’cha can sauté a perfect bullseye egg on the road this instance!

tonight I shall splurge some qualitytime with my baby, of coz after spending the evening with our darlings and tucking our babies to dreamland…

I always look forward to weekends…

It’s MY moment in time with my brood!

Enjoy your weekend Peeps… with your most loved ones!   nothing else matters…

NOTE:

it’s comical yet cynical how when u think those that seemingly matters most can be such jerks, arseholes and mtfks at the end of the day; and eventually it’ll all come back to u nonchalantly…wtf??!! ;o)

hobbitlike-snake? OR

snakelike-cacing??

it moves, sashays and slithers like a snake so i’m still sticking with my FIRST and foremost notion when i first ‘laid eyes’ on it… it’s unquestionably a baby snake! even though it’s not venomous or whatsoever but still, it categorises under ‘reptile’… must be my intuition, mother nature… LOL! feeling my ‘chinese-y’ animal year calling…. *ahaks*

@ the firm… we still observe and scrutinise wherever we toddle on… who knows ‘its’ siblings or momma might come calling, again!… afterall, we didn’t ‘massacre’ ‘it’… ‘it’ was ‘released’ to ‘its’ wildlife @ longkang habitat the morningafter…

happy thursday night peeps… :o)

Today was a FUNtastic
hullabaloo at the firm; come mid-noon…

Everyone was frenzied
with their own thingamajig… when ‘Cella heedlessly mentioned ‘eeee…how am I
gonna removed @ kill tis cacing underneath my desk?’ me being directly
opposite her, asked wat she meant… (I was thinking… cacing?! in our
office? I know it’s showery and clammy outside… but, cacing?!! or snake?)
then, I nonchalantly approached her working station and asked where tis so
called ‘cacing’ was, which is supposedly to be underneath her desk?… ‘Cella
said… ‘eh, it was there seconds ago. Maybe beneath my slippers’… she
moved her slippers THEN ‘Cella, Nizah and I was transfixed on the ‘cacing’ as
it started to escape slithering away sideways AND, I squealed… ‘tat’s not cacing! Baby Ular that…!!!”….the
whole department started scattering away in ALL directions from the pantry, on
the stools, chairs, desks (just name it!) amidst the screaming and
shrieking and watchamacallit… muahahahha I just stood there looking at ‘it’,
didn’t know whether I should smack ‘it’ dead with ‘Cella’s slippers?… get the
boys to catch ‘it’?… was there any of ‘its’ family members around? everyone
else around me was asking to KILL ‘it’…eventually, Rex and Asmin put ‘it’ in a
water jar I got from the pantry as ‘evidence’ for VF and PC to see. LOL!!

The MEN were so
convinced (still is!) that ‘it’ is/was not a Snake but a
snakelike-Cacing…

This is not the first, second nor third time they’ve found snake/s in
our firm…
1. Found, caught and killed a mid-grown snake curled-up amongst the rocks at
our fish pond.
2. Found a complete set of a python-like skin (only!) just
outside our pantry.
3. Found a baby snake curled up underneath near the refrigerator in our pantry.
4. Found a baby snake just outside our conference room doorwar ~ Jan’07.
 

Waddya think? do u think ‘it’
was a Baby hobbitlike-Snake or a snakelike-Cacing?

I shall post up a pix of the ‘it’
soon… (just realised i left the cam in the car!)

Wat a way to start the week off…
Happy Monday Peeps!

found this in one of my emails as i was clearing out my inbox… this should be read by each and everyone of us, from time to time, at least! i do that…and, shall remain doing so… especially during my down moments.

Count your Blessings Peeps…

HUGZmuakks : @ud

Life
Is A Gift

Today before you think of saying an unkind word - Think of someone who can’t
speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has
nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who’s crying
out to God for a companion.

Today before you complain about life - Think of someone who went too early to
heaven.

Before you complain about your children - Think of someone who desires children
but they’re barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn’t clean or sweep -
Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive - Think of s! omeone who walks the
same distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed,
the disabled and those who wished they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember
that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face
and thank God you’re alive and still around.

Life is a gift, Live it, Enjoy it, Celebrate it, AND fulfill it!!.